MIRARARA

Tuesday, January 20, 2009 @ 5:20 PM

silence

supp humans! it's been a while shince I updated and right now,I've got tons of things to type it down here. oh yeah. hahaha. my life's now not like before. I've not much time for social life? Haha. I mean,I don't really hang out(in fact not at all). It's not that I'm trying to be ignorant or something. Just that,I'm just too tired to do all those.

Go school>Training>Go back home>Eat>Bathe>Homework>Sleep
[or]
Go school>Straightaway go back home>eat>computer>bathe>homework>sleep
[or]
Go school>Hmt class and training>go back home>eat>bathe?homework>sleep

well,I don't mind anyway,at least with this tight schedule,I'm discipline(haha?) enough to do follow it? Oh yeah,I do almost all the time. Good girl aren't I? well,sure enough,all these hardworks be it in academic or sports,it's going to be paid off.

"people,just hang in there."

alright,let's make this post longer? Hahahhahha. my posts are getting so boring each day. like totally seriously okay. hahahhaa. well,first,today is damn tiring. Hellya! I dozed off and then slept during history lessons,I forced myself not to. But,due to being too tired,I fell asleep. And,almost the whole class is not listening to Ms Foo,how pathetic? Everyone's too bored,including the top scorer in our level. Heehoh.
Everyone "woke up" when History period's almost time. Haha.

I feel weaker mentally each day as it's been almost a week since I talked to Dad. We had a some kind of quarrel? I don't know. And whenever I try talking to him,he won't even want to look at me and reply. He responds with his actions,that's all. What's wrong? I've been trying my best to change,but,you've got to understand that I'm still in the process of getting to understand myself. Why must he rush? Does he think that,in a blink,everything can change? yeah,maybe I should kind of fake? eh,no. I can't,in that case,it won't reflect the real me,true? let's put this aside,cause,I ain't going to let it affect me. Yes,I don't want to. No.

Dear Dad,
I'm sorry if I ain't a good and filial daughter to you. Until know,I've yet to know the real me yet. I'm in the process of doing so. I apologise if I'm such a burden to you. I admit,it's all my fault. But,with whatever I am doing right now,in the future,would you ever going to support me? Despite the condition that we've not been talking to each other for days? My sincere apology. Only God knows everything.

And,thanks to whoever,I'm down with flu. And,like cool or whaaat? Almost the whole of my canoeing team is down with sickness. Haha,like whatthehell? Lo. Yeah,and I hate this part right here. The feeling is so not great okay. When you've got to stay under the HOT sun and your mind is somewhere else. Ohhohohohhhh. Well,that should be all.

i don't know what else to type next. erm,alright,let's see. okay,I know,I really really really really a gazilion times to want to hop on someone's bike and go for a ride on it. Heh,I'm waiting for Abg Ziad to do so. Haha. Happyhappyhappy bitch! Alright,and plus,gilera's such a nice bike!(though I've not ride on it before) Haha.

to my love,
Sometimes I wonder and ponder,am I currently doing the right thing? well,I guess,you've got the perfect someone else right? my love for you is still down here,deep down here. I'm really missing you real real much. can I have a sweet 14 February with you? I won't get mad if you can't,cause I understand. ;) you take care of yourself.

cause
1 thing,
2 do,
3 words,
4 you,
I love you.

Faddie: Nahh,gmba2 yg kau naaaaaak. haha. ade tkd kat sini. nnt aku send thru email.